Beginning anew after forming an unhealthy habit
Last month was hard for me. I meant to build my coaching and organizational development skills. Instead, I dabbled in crypto investments and found myself quite addicted to technology staying up late to watch numbers on a screen go up or down.
The last week, I joined a meditation retreat offered by Plum Village, an organization founded by Thich Nhat Hanh. I spent no time on a computer at all. Additionally, since everyone at the retreat was vaccinated, I was able to take off my mask around new people for the first time since the pandemic began.
I saw very clearly as I meditated with this community that I was as addicted to technology as someone who uses a drug is addicted to a drug over the last month. I wished to modify rather than end my relationship with technology. Despite its benefits, I had gotten into an abuse relationship in which I kept using technology instead of sitting with my discomfort. That addiction cycle led to depression. As a result of my 5-day meditation retreat, I feel a level of joy and happiness that I haven’t felt in the last month.
So how does one begin anew? After this retreat I feel in a great position to try. and have committed to setting better limits and structuring my day more.
